Whenever I'm weary
From the battles that rage in my head
what a time to get unwell eh. well, apparently its not only me. but worry not. i'm getting better. hahah. i sound so.. me-centred. eee. no. cannot. i'm turning into people i don't like. eee. i'll say it again. but worry not. i shall pray for those who are not exactly in the best condition now. :) definitely sounded better eh. heh.
today has been a really eventful day. maths was a blast. it was virtually 3 periods (3hrs) of maths. we managed to squeeze out some laughter from ms lim. big achievement. then it was recess. then it was physics. another interesting period. mr sim came in quite pissy and all but got a little less pissy towards the end. managed to squeeze some laughter from him too. another sizeable achievement. then it was humanities. as usual, a rather enjoyable period. didnt manage to squeeze any laughter from mr liew though. he's one tough nut to crack. last period - english. one of the most fun english lessons i've had in a while. it was really fun. managed to squeeze out a lot of laughter from mrs ho. even though she seemed a little annoyed at first. so it was quite a fun day in school la. thankfully. i wasn't sure how much longer i could go on surviving school as it was. everyone seemed to be so negative and stressed and all and it was like radiating and affecting me. so my survival instincts kicked in and i began to supply myself with joy, like laughing at my own jokes - haha. almost. (i sound pathetic). and i'm beginning to get tired of it. i need someone to make me laugh. (eee. i sound me-centred again).
You make sense of my madness
When my sanity hangs by a thread
and today. at tuition. i had my confidence crumble. ok. we were there. and someone began to cry. and that someone has been one of the pillars of my strength there. that someone is someone i used to look to and rely on to build my shattered confidence up again after constant beating. so now i really feel the heat. there's nothing between me and the flame. (another me-centred sounding statement. heck. its my blog. let me indulge in my me-centredness while i'm here.)
I lose my way but still
You seem to understand
claire's amazing. how she can make people feel more than they are. feel so special, so loved. and so at ease. its like magic. so flirting with mcdonald guys is not her only strength after all. heh. :)
i love everyone in our dysfunctional tuition group. tuition never feels right unless its all of us there at a table, sitting, doing our work in not so much of a silence. heh.
Now I can rest my worries and always be sure
That I won't be alone anymore
If I'd only known you were there all the time
All this time
Until the day the ocean
Doesn't touch the sand
Now and forever
I will be your man
Italics - Now and Forever by Richard Marx.
Posted at 01:06 am by afzal
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